fuck.

...i don't want to go through this again.

mute.

"A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart, and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words."

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help.

questions.

i've been asking a lot of questions lately.

"would you rather..." and "what if..."

if... i didn't say "yes."

if... i made a better time of it at oxford.

if... i made it into i and you didn't.

if... you made it into i and i didn't.


to be honest, i think i'm just afraid, and somehow questions help me cope. i guess by thinking about all the possibilities, i know that whatever happens, i won't be surprised. nothing can hurt me.

i guess i'm more freaked out by the future than i thought.

but that's okay.

because if anything, at least we still make sense.

and that will always go without question.

<3

third person.

"there really isn't anywhere i'd rather be than lying right here with you."

happy anniversary.

okay, so i haven't had time to update this for a reason. i've been working on something. hopefully i'll have enough money for it by your birthday.

in the meantime, here's a sneak peak. :)