the first time.

"I'm feeling alive all over again
As deep as a sky under my skin
Like being in love, she said, for the first time
Well maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right
Where I belong with you tonight
Like being in love to feel for the first time"

Reply to this post, and I will list three things I love about

you. Maybe more than three. Then repost to your own journal and spread the love.

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because he's my best friend. because i can always spot him in the middle of a crowd. because i can never stay mad at him. because he listens to what i have to say. because he's a dork. because he hates scary movies. because he always makes my day, even if it's been the worst day ever. because he taught his sister my name was "rhino." because he has never cussed at me. because he writes me love letters. because i want to make him happy. because he's a puuhead. because i believe in him. because he appreciates me. because i feel more at home with him than anyone or anywhere else. because he looks forward to my crummy posts. because he puts up with my stupid questions. because he holds my hand when i drive. because he always makes sure i'm okay. because he sings for me even if he doesn't think he's good at it. because he's there for me. because he accepts me. because he makes me smile. because he's comfortable around me. because of the way i fit in his arms.

and most of all, because he was willing to take a chance.

thank you. <3

i hope it was worth it.

ten random things about me.

TEN Random Things About Me
1. i was going to be a gypsy when i grew up.
2. i hate when it's hot and cloudy. for some reason, i'm convinced it means an earthquake is on the way.
3. my favorite flowers are dandelions and forget-me-nots.
4. one day, i want someone to read a book that reminds them of me and give it to me as a gift.
5. i really miss writing.
6. my voice is embarrassingly high. i don't know how people can stand it.
7. i suffer from slight anorexia. the smallest bit of pudge and i have to fast for a day.
8. when i'm quiet, it usually means i'm thinking about something.
9. i always order unsweetened iced tea.
10. i love dancing, but i totally suck at it. x)

NINE Ways To Win My Heart
1. take me on a walk. extra points if there's something pretty to look at.

2. remember the little things.
3. sing for me.
4. be patient with me. i've been bruised and broken over the years, so i have to be a little more careful/sensitive than most.
5. have a passion and stick to it. i like seeing you happy.
6. i don't care if you look at other girls; you're a guy. it's hard-wired. but try not to do it when i'm around. at the end of the day, i like to think i'm the only one that really matters.
7. call me if you know you won't see me for a while. it's nice knowing i'm on your mind.
8. never say never. if i'm worth it, you'll find a way.
9. take an interest in my life. i might never be quite as fun or entertaining or popular as you, but what matters to me matters, and i'd love to share them with the person i care about most.

EIGHT Things I Want To Do Before I Die
1. be fluent in another language.
2. travel the world.
3. write a book/screenplay/extensive journalism piece and be known for it.
4. make a wish on a shooting star.
5. decorate my own house/apartment.
6. learn how to play guitar.
7. watch the sunrise.
8. send a message in a bottle.

SEVEN Ways To Annoy Me
1. drive slow.
2. drive stupidly.
3. talk down to me.
4. argue with me without considering my side.
5. take me for granted.
6. talk about me behind my back.
7. talk about my friends behind their backs.

SIX Things I Believe in?
1. God.
2. the overall goodness of humanity.
3. love.
4. karma.
5. free speech/will.
6. destiny.

FIVE Things I am Afraid Of
1. earthquakes.
2. crawling insects.
3. being hurt.
4. losing friends/love.
5. dying young.

FOUR Favorite Items In My Room
1. computer.
2. camera.
3. book shelves.
4. bed.

THREE Things I Do Everyday
1. check myspace/deviantart/livejournal/facebook/uber/blogspot/twitter/youtube/etc.
2. think of youuuu. haha.
3. brush my hair a million times.

TWO Things I Want To Do Right Now
1. nap.
2. write.

ONE person I want to see right now
1. kan dang and arianna castillo.

psh. rules? what rules?

after today.

( my summer bucket list )

-sneak out of the house
-go to disneyland
-kiss someone under the fireworks

-fly :)

wish list.

sentimentality.

11.15.06

Falling in love makes you a dreamer. You see you both on the first date, long before it takes place, imagine the time you will spend together

There´s an old saying - you like someone "because." "Because" they have blue eyes, or a pretty smile, or a cute nose. You love someone "even though." Even though he´s not rich, even though she´s not an excellent cook. Liking means you´re fond of their good traits. Love means you accept them fully even though they´re not perfect.

When you like someone, you´re nervous about saying the right thing, or how they´ll react to something, or how things will go on the next date. When you love someone, you are content and comfortable just being with your partner. Whether you curl up side by side with books on a rainy evening, or spend hours over dinner in a local restaurant, it´s nice just to spend time with each other.

Real love is when you love someone without asking for anything in return. It's when even a passing smile can make your day, a small pat on the back can make you feel alive and the mere sound of his/her voice can move you to break out into a song inside. Real love isn't fate nor it is written in the stars. You yourself have to make love happen. It's a choice, a commitment that you stand up for. and even if you're uncertain if he/she loves you back, you take the risk of facing whatever pain that would come your way simply because you believe he/she is worth everything . . . and more . . .

When love hits you . . . you really don't have any idea what to do. That's what's so great about it.

He annoys at you constantly, but he's only asking for your attention.

You can't believe you let them go

Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.

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call me a creeper for looking through your old posts, but to be honest, i love reading them. it's like i'm getting a first-hand look at some chapter of your life, some part of you i wouldn't normally get to see.

day-to-day, there are always so many other things, so many distractions, which get in the way of everything we really want to say. and i guess reading what you post is a way for me to see what truly mattered to you, what you cared about enough to set aside a few minutes of your day to write about. sometimes it's school; most times it's dance.

but every so often, i'm lucky enough to find that it's me (except i think in this case, it's katherine. haha, w/e) . . .

and whenever that happens,

it's really like i'm the luckiest girl in the world. :)

the process.

"It starts with one discreet desire to hold you close when everything starts making sense. So we jump start the process; move faster, we're losing faith. I never meant to push you away.

Tonight, I'll be searching for you, finding my way back to all the promises that we made.

When it comes, there's no reaction that could change my mind, 'cause I've been waiting for so long to restart the cycle and revive the memory. Give me just one chance; that's all I'll need.

Times when I was lost and cold, I looked to you to pull me through. Now I need to tell you that you were the best I ever had.

And we have come so far, but our lives may never change...

Tonight, I'll be searching for you, finding my way back to all the promises that we made.

Tonight, I'll be searching for you, finding my way back to all the promises that we made."

<3

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i made that video almost nine months ago. funny how these things work out. :)

homework goals

START/COMPLETION DATES

brave new world: started/august 10
--50 pgs/day

1984: august 11/august 17
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mythology: august 11/august 17
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bible: august 10/august 15*
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essay: august 15/august 22*
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euro: august 15/august 30*
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